My life has written for me
My Life With You and Without You
Hello I would like tell you some things about me and you , long ago you have asked me to write some things about you but I thought that why it is necessary to write some things on you but now I realize that you should express your feeling by some media may it some eye or mouth or simply by writing .Here I will not bore you by writing that how much I love you and all those thing .Those things I have done long ago .More over here I will explain you that what is the value of Ayantika in Debadip life .
Long ago a simple girl used to live in Dumdum Kolkata,her name was Ayantika ,she was very good and charming and a very simple girl that time .She use to go to a institute called franfin and has got aspiration for becoming an air hostess .A boy used to sms her and had became a very good friend of her ,but suddenly one day he sms her and toled her that he loves her , then she got astonished and ask him to meet next day ,and the day was 17 th by the boy and 13th by the girl but they love the both day till now .As that he proposed her and she got blushed away with the proposal ,it was not new to her as she had already got proposal from many others .But with time spent and gone she felt that she has got a soft conner for him and then one day she really feel in love with him. And after some day they really got into some things which is the most wonder full things could happened in anybodies life .After that day the boy left the girl back and gone outside Kolkata and one year passed still could not find a way to bring her back to him ,she was very dis hearted but the boy could not make out why and how he could bring her along to him .In the mean time she got very close to parents of the boy and now she is daughter to the parent whom she loves very much .
She always tells the boy that why you not understanding me and all this word but she does not know that the boy things same as the girl as the only back drop of the boy is that he cant express himself .She does not know that the situation in which she is facing is exactly the same situation the boy is come through .But he never tell her a word as he knows that she will be in pain and nothing much will happened .She always cries and think that the boy never understand her but she is wrong in this one as the boy is trying whole heartily to bring her to him .Now the boy only think that if some power comes to him by which he can bring her close to him and thats all he prays to god .
This is story which I thought to tell you ,may I am not very much fluent in writing good and romantic poem but I am writing about you some things which I feel about you. Life before you was like dull and boring when you came to my life I feel that I got some things in life .You not only come to my life as my life partner but you became my best friend also .As you know you used to share all the things with me even your Kurti color also ,as every body will tell that you are depending on me but that was not the truth I feel was depended on you as I also started to thinking that there one and only one who care about my decision and cares about me ,whole of life I have given to others for doing or making things happened ,after you came to my life I have learn t that Debadip is individual and he has also got life and some virtue to live ,you the person who has help me to realize that yes I could expect some things from some body .You are the person who has helped me to live in this world with some reason to live .You are the person for whom my relation with my mother remains smooth. You always think that you are depended on me but the real fact is that I am really dependent on you by various way ,it not like this that you have became very close to my family that why I need you but for living in this world I really need your shoulder and hand ,i have tolled you that you are not my love you my breath for which my heart is beating.
May be I am making you bore but I felt very happy and realize that I should wrote this things long back
The reason why I am writing this is to tell you what will happened if you are not there ,as life with out you means equal to death as you are a person who not became my life partner but also became a part of my life who controls me from my inside .I know that I have done several mistakes but what can I do with out you ,this is not true that I have never thought life without you ,but every time I tried to go away from you it lead to near to your heart,Ayantika I will not ask you that whether you can live with or without me , as I have asked you several time ,but I am asking my self that what will happened to me if you are not there for me .You will will say that there lots of girl who can take care of me ,but they will not be the another Ayantika,you last two weeks it was like hell to live as some things was and is missing till now in our life .
What is ayantika means to me ,she like a god me as she is girl from whom debadip started to live and will die to her only ,i have not loved her but also praised and worship her .I know she thinks that I never understand her soul and mind but I want to tell her one thing that I really want to a good life partner and good husband and good friend of her till my last breath left in my body ,life with her is like living in hell without any meaning ,she thinks that is she will go then I have got my family to support but my family start from her and end to her only .
Last not the least I want to tell that Debadip is incomplete with Ayantika and want to tell her that he has always loved from his core of his heart ,he always miss those precious moment which he has spent with her such as mondarmoni and etc and he has got really few memories where he became himself and spent those time with her by holding hand .He is very tough in nature from outside to every body but he very week to mou where he thinks that he got heaven from her ,he always asked god to give her every thing but the god is not listing to him .
At last my life is one and only with Ayantika.............................................
I think I have not bored you by this if then sorry in advance,but only I want to share to you …..................